The War Within

I had to walk away from the battle
To win the war within.
It was the only way I'd live
To love someone again.
Slowly, I came to cease to be
In order to be what you wanted of me.
Then one day, it all came apart
You said this wasn't in your heart.
As I choked on your words
As I swallowed the lies
It was in that moment
I began to despise.
Me, for allowing me
To cease to be me
Trying to
Make you happy
Throwing caution to the wind
Inviting you in
From the very start
I knew it wasn't right
'Cause it started off wrong
I lost my light
I took a wrong turn
I wandered the Path
I tried to make it right
But it didn't stand a chance.
So I'm not mad at you
But I can't respect you
Too often we forget
That the things we do
Are like raindrops in the ocean
With cascading effects.
Others are lost in the waves
Of our unhappiness
As the waves hit the shore
They are forced to witness
The breaking of a heart
The breakdown of home
The let down of this life
The put downs that go on
So, I've found myself again
Good to see you, old friend
I walked away from the battle
To win the war within.
I lived to fight another day,
I lived to love someone again.